2010, 2011, 2012....

31/12/2010...1/1/2011....
明年,去年...看似相隔了365又1/4的“一年”,
实际上只是一天只差、一分之差、一秒之微差...!!!

去年的任务,你又完成了么?
还是都拖到了这区区一秒之后,成了2011的第一份add-on负担?

2011的到来没有把我吓倒...
我并不是那么的一塌糊涂,芷琪其实真的很棒...!
千里马常有,伯乐难寻...
不是在自我安慰,而是自我鼓励,启动心中的那一部发电机...
马达声...你听见了吗?

我生命中的佳节越来越少,
却根据科学原理,
转换为一份份心里的无限触动、
培养更多的味蕾细胞、
开通更多喜悦的泪腺、连接更多的脑细胞...

2010年,又有多少个小时?多少分钟?多少秒呢?
我的数学不是太好...xP
想感谢你们总在我的身边/心中,协助我、帮忙我、爱我...=)
脑海里...现在,需要很多的时间与空间,来处理这一些你们的好、你们的可爱...
这么复杂的数据,恐怕电脑也不及我吧?暗爽-ing...xd

身体上的每一个疤痕,都那么鲜明夺目,
因为都拥有不同的色彩,散发出不同的光芒,每一刻都在提点着我...不能重蹈覆辙!!!
缺点也扮演着举足轻重的角色... ...

自强...自立...自律...自信...自爱...>>>我的目标
不是无稽之谈,而是一份对自己的承诺...
电脑科技能Update, 芷琪当然也要提升个人修养品格,不可以out dated..xp

2011...据说是世界末日的前一年...要活在当下!不可轻易颓丧...
这就是我,就是辅导学会的执委,就是大家认识的芷琪!
好了,不空谈,要以实际行动证明!看着办...=)

没有宽裕的时间,却与你们建立了深厚的感情...

2011年新生生活营结束了...
我不使用“终于”这两个字,因为我真的、真得很不舍得他们那可爱的一群。
我也是生活营的新鲜人。第一次参与这类型的服务,收获也特别地多...^^

{28/12}
第一天,他们怯生地聚到到国字楼底楼的生物实验室门口,经过n次的搬迁,终于在位于行政楼底楼的一间实验室落脚。他们,不久后还是要回到他们最终的班级。这两天的回忆,会被遗漏在这儿生灰尘吗?
有活泼的、内向的、腼腆的、热枕的、乐观的,各式各样的性格...你们的班主任,让我很钦服!
犯下了大大小小的错误...误导、语言表达不佳、给错资讯等...很幸运地,俊霖学长&启伦长辈的大量,让我从错误中学习与反省...有他们,我才不至于慌了阵脚。我,并不是什么了不起的头等人物,但却殷切地期望,能够给予学弟学妹的是最亲切的校园生活...从你们的笑声,我知道,你们已经融入了中华这一个大家庭。
不要彷徨、不要害怕,daddy&mummy在你们的身边...一起度过^^
往后,我会,偷偷的,在一旁见证你们的成长。不是偷窥,只是关心。xp.你们倘若看见了我们,一个微笑,我们就知道,你们过得很好。或许有一天,你们也参与服务时,就想起我们吧?=)
爱你们...
再累,也是值得的!

{29/12}
感谢你的宽容与坦白,我们才能顺利地完成任务,并学习&成长了不少...可能在你的眼中,我只是一个14岁的初二幼稚丫头,那么地小器固执,扛起了那么多不好的品格...想让你知道,我在改善中。想澄清这一切,因为我不想要来一个没有道别的离别...你会知道我在述说的是你...
一信的班主任,对不起,我表现出了我的不专业,竟然在服务期间EMO...与他相处得不错,挺合拍的。他的教育方式与思维模式是我欣赏的!祝福2011初一信有一个光明的未来,快乐的2011.观光校园,俊霖生气了,训了新生们一顿。新生们都吓呆了,包括我也是...的确,这是他们该上宝贵的一堂课!最后,很有elastic地,还是恢复了愉快的气氛,划上了一个快乐的句点...

我们,就像真的爸爸妈妈一样,大声地挥手道别后,凝视着他们的离去...
谢谢你们,也让我回到了美好的初一生涯...这一夜,我拥有了甜甜的微笑!=)
祝愿你们拥有一个美好的开始!


2011年新生生活营服务!

披着一个我极为不满意的短发,到了封尘已久的学校。
很多学会还是那么勤力地回校进行集训...很多同学拖着疲惫的身影“游”回学校...
这是我在假期后第二次回校。改变不是太大,还是那一个熟悉的地方...

到了办公室,不得了!办公室在短短的不到两个月,化为名副其实的“死城”。
书本、文件夹、纸张,还是叠得一样高,倒是最表层被一张张的报纸覆盖。是老师们担心灰尘的堆积吧?但是...想象一下,一办公室的报纸,尽收眼帘,还是很吓人的!

到了我亲爱的咨商室,也好不到哪儿...
扫描一分钟后,清楚了,有许许多多的清理工作等着我。咧着笑脸,向我招呼...多么阴险~
开始了,打开橱柜,我像触电一样,跳了起来,证实了自己的反应不会太慢...因为,我看见了我的克星——小强大哥......

过后,到了冷气会议室,听了主任们的踊跃发表与讨论。突然发现老师们的开会还挺别的!笑弹连连...可是,我看见有一些班主任眯上了双眼,开始准备当姜太公的职业继承人——钓鱼....当然,新上任的班主任则集精会神地在做笔记,活像老师们在上课...不过,相信维持不了多久。毕竟,当老师,是很费神的职业...我很体贴的~XD

每一班,将由各一位学长、辅导员、图书管理员协助,当初一新生们的Daddy&Mummy。光阴似箭,犹记得初一刚进来中华时,战战兢兢的度过了三个月。2009年的初一爱是由玉冰&依婷带领。那时还进错男toilet,愚到不行!~熟悉了,就不再是老师们乖乖充满朝气的红苹果了咯!要不,投入于繁忙的课业中;要不,单纯的思想被荼毒...浑浑噩噩,过了两年,好快!想不到,明年就是初三生了,三仁,现在还当学姐了...很快,考完PMR&UEC,高中啦~=)

过后,就互相认识我们即将协助的老师。我呢,是负责初一信,班主任是贺福光师。是数学老师,明天会是他第一天的上班。他的想法很特别,相信2011年的初一信会是很多姿多彩的一班。可是啊,很担心他是否会被欺负...因为他真的很好人...我会尽我的全力来帮助他。与其说协助,倒不如说互相学习呢?或许.....谁知道?+)

明天......未知数?

对与错?

2010年...
还有倒数的11天...
自己是荒废了自己的人格修养么?

怎么开始批评别人了?!
自以为有资格?不!不!不!
开始有野心了?开始有抱负了?
开始对一切的事物有自己别具一格的意见了?!

最后,却对自己的这一个脑袋,这一个思考模式,这一套方法,
烦恼起来了...厌倦起来了...
因为再有意见,又能改变些什么?
我又不是这一出戏的导演或编辑...
一张嘴、一个脑袋,谈改变?天方夜谭吧?!

对与错,只是convention.
Convention is impermanent...
我有幸见证吗?

空气中没了氧气,却有二氧化碳的取代,还是100%的空气,
但,这个叫没有任何改变么?
什么叫睁一只眼,闭一只眼?
我,在明知故问,无理取闹。

只有做出这样的解释,你们才会平静下来...
只有我自己在进行着自己小小的抗议示威活动,感受到了,喘息中……

I must accept this comment...

I'm clear that i m really poor in Eng.
It;s true, but hurt!
Especially when u compare me with my sis.

I m trying so hard to improve it !
Did u see.I m sure that u r not.
If not, u wont say tat to me.

I'm childish to think like this, arent i?

But I m lucky.I have a kor kor who very sayang me.
He trust me.He knows i can do good in Eng!
I will do this for me, and for him.

要与不要... Accept & Reject...

断送了自己的机会…
我,还有资格去向别人索取机会么?

要与不要,
皆定于一念之间。
却那么的难以作出抉择...

就像黑与白,
那么强烈的对比,
各有千秋,
只分界于一线之间...

要好好反省!

Raining SeaSon..afraid?enjoy?

Raining heavily again...It has been raining for a few hours, i wonder when will it stop.
Thundering makes people afraid. Lightening was so beautiful but danger.Juz like ur love for me is warm and hurt.What can i do?Pray for it? And i , such a coward, hiding myself in a piece of blanket and doing nothing. Dunno what was happened just outside the window. Now, i m standing up and have a look.

Formula: Air-cond+ raining day>>freeze...>.<


I miss Ming Yang Chai.He gave me his jackets when i m sick.He warm my body and my heart too. He, as my classmate;he, as my frenz; he, as a 参赛者 in my game;he, as my guidance...jackets, can replaced by a toast bread.But he,for me, cannot replace by anyone...
!!!

I m afaid of this raining day,but i enjoy it too...
because of him...

高跟鞋的由来XD

女性,可以被形容为以慈悲为怀的感性一群...

依据鞋商统计的数据,高跟鞋的销售量有增无减,不怕失去市场,
只因为女性依然在...=)
他们为了减少蚂蚁们的死亡率,不惜让脚裸受疼,穿上伤害自己的高跟鞋...
只为爱护小生灵,选择较少与地面接触面积的行走方式。
可见,女性是多么伟大的一群呵!

但,女性也可以被形容为“She is a good friend but a bad enemy”...
对于那些不知好歹,不存有感激之心的恶人,
可是不会放过善用高跟鞋高压强之特征的机会!

To my BeLoVeD oNe who LeT mE soTouched!

It's a quiet little bit different day of today to me. If i had let you felt that i m such a selfish girl before and even now, may i say sorry and ask for your forgiveness? I felt sorry of my behaviour, as what you see, i m trying so hard to change it. Pls give me a chance and some courage before you leave me... I will be so thankful of u.

I get care and support from you, my beloved one.I fell comfortable and warm to be with you. I done all my best for you, I just want to be with you, love you... And thats why i always care and appear infront of you. Or you can say my care for you is so annoying, keep disturb you all the time. But i will be so sad to hear that from you,especially from you! A sms, a DIY - card, doing some lovely disturb thing on you, that is how a 14 years old girl shows her love to you. She cant even give you a warm hug or hold your hand , because of the thousands reason...

Pls, show out your feeling of what she do on you. Are you feeling good of these caring from she? Or annoyed ? I think she is willing to wait for your answer. I dunno is her asking for feedback, but the most important is, pls think about your own real feeling of all these she do for you. Whether is the answer nice to hear, she will be okey atleast you fell comfortable .She likes to see your smile, juz like a sunshine... Thats all she ask from you.

From: the 14 years old girl who love you so much...

生活剧场...

如有雷同,纯属巧合...

PaRt 1:
兴奋的开场白


期待已久,不想再错过这个机会了!没有书法天赋、没有时间的磨练,但深知自己对这个文化有着浓厚的兴趣…1313…1312…书法班…主要内容是书法基础知识、加上临摹,半天课程…推开了补习班(RM38.00),兴致勃勃地答应下来。短讯夹带着我对你的承诺游走在我们之间。就这样,愉快的一个夜晚...


延伸 : 战战兢兢的分叉路口


不是吧?要现场挥毫?!怎么可能嘛?你这样是等于叫一个婴儿,烹煮料理给总统吃嘛...我的书法,只不过是在 ground floor 不停的原地踏步!
还要自备笔墨...我不过只有一两枝为了应付中楷练习的毛笔,品质也可想而知了。
这样啊,现场必然有许多高手了,我……还是乖乖的摆在一旁吧!倒也希望,我这个小角色不会被发现,千万拜托不要让中华独中蒙羞啊!我这算不算浪费资源呢?中华只限七个人去,而我是七人之一...这一回啊,我再机灵也跑不掉了。可以这样吗?让我披一披隐形风斗,我学我想学习的,你们切磋你们的...


小插曲:智慧化身的提点

学习的过程中,有时加一些冲刺才有进步...


剧终:坚定的抉择

豁出去了咯...
在蓝蓝的天空,也有一个小小的突破,算不错吧!
第一,是为了自己的提升...
第二,是不想让你失望...
第三,有尝试,可能出丑的百分率很高,高得吓人。但是,如果我不尝试,永远,我就会被困在这一个小圈圈里,原地踏步...要相信,献丑,也会成长...


散场后的故事:

…………待我1312回来后再编辑…………

味蕾的突破

熟悉的味道,有海水的味道,感觉还挺不错的。
但,怎么感觉起来是咸咸的东西那么多啊?
酸梅……牛奶……饼干……咸菜……汗水……
嗯,其中还有的是夹带酸甜的液态不明物体...

泪水?

每次从枕头泛出来的味道,原来如此啊!

是失望的味道么?

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I have no comment at all with your speech.
What can i do is only to accept.Just keep silent and smile to u?
All we need is some more time.

Is there any time for sell?
the patient i can give you is probably out of stock.
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真的失望了。
接受你,我想我需要时间。
原谅你,我想我需要很多时间。
爱你,我想我需要很多很多的时间...

我正专心的温习功课,你却一巴掌盖过我的头。
天旋地转,满天星星。一切失去了真实性,但一点也没梦幻的美...
我,无法忘记那一幕。黑暗的漩涡,我不想陷入。
你能体谅我的心情么?



Dear...thx so much.

My fellow friends...My dear...My darling...My teacher...
i miss u so much.
Thx for still remember me!

Yea, That feeling is so true and real! I even felt a little bit panic just before the few minutes i receive the sms from you...I didnt lie at all.I m so glad that you still remember me althought we are having our holiday.Thx for ur trust.I m so appreciated of what you gave me.I think tonight will be such a sweet and warm night.
JUST...because of ur lovely sms goes into my day.

Nite~, we will have a nice starting...
You know, having a sweet dream is such a good feeling for all living beings.
Take care...i think we wont be in the same class in2011.Good Luck to us!=)

I wont let you be disappointed again.
I will protect u in the way i can do.
At least, i will do my best in my study.You too,i know you will!

The chance we can make our night.Form a miracle...
In the every second in our life.


This is my heart-talk.Hope you will like it!

P/s:the one who know me, wont misunderstanding what i say.

Hatred doesnt cease by cease, but only by love...

"Calm down please, zhiqi"... { whisper }

I know i must not let myself scream or shout like before. I have no choice.Tears is falling down...
i dunno what is that feeling call, but my tears help me to express all those bad feeling. No one will see, because i can cover it very well.

She thought i m very free during this holiday.

She thought one month ++ is a long period to be.

She thought I m just wasting the time.

She thought examination is easy to face.

She thought i can easily success in my study.

She thought i can get full A in my exam all the time.

She thought i can handle all those things by myself...


But....I hope to say i m still a child!!! I m not going to escape anything by using the privilege of being a child. I need a rest...Actually, I m panic to face next year. Pls go easy on my failure.I need someone, including her, to give me some support. I need some personal time to do my revision.In front of the exam, I always do my best. And the main, I scare to fall down. Although I know it is impossible to be, but I still hope to see my improvement all the time. No matter how hard to reach, I know it must be valuable. So, I will go on…

I forgive you, and i hope to ask for ur forgiveness too.

May i?=)

Heng...u know i m talking about u^^

feeling good..=)
I enjoy this moment of happiness...Perhaps there was some reason to make me happy?Anyway, thx for everyone and everything!

Have a nice dream?i m sure i will smile when i sleep, when i dream...

Loving someone is a very enjoyable things.Not that type of self-love between couples. I love him, and he is my friend, i think.hahax...i being so childish before.i thought i love u as my XX. Now, i realize, u r my fren. We go through so much test between us.I m happy to be with u.

The star, so bright.
The holy night.
Something good gloom in my heart.
Everything become so wonderful.That's the power of smile.

Hope this feeling can maintain for longer...I love you!

i would like to share to someone, including you if you read my blog.

Panic...and curious to face.o.0

This holiday isn't too boring for me.But this is the 1st time i scare to face the school opening day.Next year, must be a very busy+exciting year, i think...

Exam...exam...keep talking about exam..

I hope this holiday can go through faster and slower as in my control.I dont want my life of always running out of time.Rush all the time...This holiday is the most meaningful holiday in my life, i think...

This holiday is gonna to over, so make it count!
This is the last chance i can make a different in 2010 year.

Next year, welcome =)
The most wonderful and fantastic year will be...

For me, green colour is represent hope...So, i use it in this post.

Cleaning day...

i dunno what was happened on me...

I clean everything belongs to me, including the things i love very much before and also now. after about two hours, i found my bedroom is too clean.Nothing is there accept my lovely pillows and blankets. I dunno is there anything left, but i m clear that i wont regret...

Okey, it's fine,i think...Keep all these in my heart as the most beautiful memories i have. I know, next year is my exam year,its the year to prove myself,maybe?but i will try my best.This is the only promise i can give...Go ahead and never ever look back ,until i reach my target...add oil .

Shame of everyone...T.T

i m so shy to say out!!!
omg...i should learn my english language earlier than everyone!
Pls! I m so shame, shame of myself.Why i can be so weak in english?
i already know that english is the international language since i m a child.
i know, that's all my fault. Is it running out of time for me to learn english?
Hope...no!

English is important!!!